So, that is one of those phrases that is sort of a Christian cliche - so easy to say, so hard to live out. I was walking my dog, on Friday before my cardio appointment, having some prayer time with God. As I walked, it was obvious that spring has started to spring. I was overwhelmed with a sense of thankfulness - even if I keeled over tomorrow, my life has been filled with blessings. It would take a lot more space than I have here to really enumerate them all. :)
As I was thanking God for all the blessings He's given me, some obvious, some not so obvious at the time, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I can TRUST God. I really, really can. Suddenly, I had this calm and peace about my appointment. I KNEW that whatever happened, God would walk through it with me. If it was nothing, then it was an experience God would use to set me free from my hypochondriac fears. If it was something, He was going to use that for His glory, and it was a privilege to be part of it.
Have you ever had a moment, when the clouds sort of roll back and give you a glimpse of the eternal perspective? My walk was like that - a glimpse of the bigger picture. Of course, my main fear of being sick or even dying young is for my boys and my parents. My boys because I am their mom, obviously, and my parents because I am all they have in the way of family. But suddenly, God was showing me that "perfect love DOES cast out fear." HIS perfect love, that is. God has a plan and purpose for my kids and my parents. He will use every circumstance, good or bad for their good because He love them perfectly. Suddenly, it wasn't just knowledge in my head, but a certainty in my heart.
So, I went to the appointment, the appointment I planned on going to alone. (I prefer to freak out by myself rather than with an audience lol) But, at the last minute, my friend invited herself along. Then when I got there, my mom showed up. So, the nursing staff were jokingly referring to my posse. lol And it was nice to have people who cared about me there. Another little blessing that I hadn't been expecting. God IS good and He IS good ALL the time.
~ Blessings, Bronte