Have you ever woke up and the day stretches before you like a barren desert? This morning I opened my eyes and I felt tired before I ever swung my legs out of bed. It is going to be a busy day that will last well into evening. I'm not particularly looking forward to it.
I'm not sure why I felt so down this morning. Maybe it is the unrelenting cold that makes it difficult to go outside at all without freezing off extremities. Maybe it is my husband's long work hours when we don't get to see enough of him. Maybe it is the busy schedule this week, where every evening is already spoken for with things I'm not exactly excited about.
Whatever it was, I felt the old defeat pushing itself up in my heart and mind. I didn't FEEL victorious. I didn't FEEL like an over comer. But, I had a choice. I could go with my feelings (which are notoriously fickle and not always in keeping with reality) or I could believe what God told me: "In all things we are overwhelmingly conquerors through Him who loved us." (Romans 8:37 NL) The italics are mine because those are the words that stand out to me - all and overwhelmingly. Not some things or sort of conquerors, but all things and total victory. So, I chose to believe. I chose to pray those words to God and ask Him to make me feel them in my heart and soul. I was rewarded.
God tells us both what faith is "Faith is the confidence that what we hope for will actually heaven; it gives us assurance about things we cannot see." (Heb. 11:1, NLT) and why we should have faith, "And it is impossible to please God without faith. Anyone who wants to come to him must believe that God exists and taht he rewards thow who sincerely seek Him." The biggest reward of seeking God is finding Him. And His presence is a reward that makes victory not just a feeling but a certainty.